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2002-09-15 - 10:43 p.m. *YAWN* - glancing at the clock - OMG is that the time?? (bemused) Ok well avoid reading this unless you wanna hear crap!! I am feeling s**t at the moment. I don't know why, but around about 7pm I was lying on the sofa with my cat and I started to feel quite bad... I felt really sleepy so I came up to bed and climbed in. I immediately fell asleep and then about 15 minutes later my phone rang. It was my sister so I had to answer it. Anyway after I spoke to her I went back to sleep. Then at 9pm I woke up and propped myself up in bed and started watching this programme about Oxford Uni. I wasn't really paying proper attention because I still felt rough. I don't know why I feel so bad because I slept a lot these past couple of nights and everything - weird!! As you may have gathered - not that anyone would be following this anyway - my sister has left. She went back this morning. I kinda miss her a wee bit because I don't know when I will see her again. Her job is a nightmare and she has no time to drive here to see us. She would have to come on a Saturday and go on the Sunday. I don't think mom will be impressed when she realises this! Soooooo, I am alone again. *Yawn* Earlier I was online chatting to uni friends on msn as well as other msn-ites... anyway I said bye and went offline to go do some practical stuff cos I was tired by this time and then my friend messages me to tell me she is back online and to come and chat. Well being ME I went back online and chatted with her.. I think I made a mistake there cos I am sure that made me feel worse... we live and we learn I guess. Having said that, sleeping doesn't seem to make me feel any better. *Yawn* Hmmmmmm... I wish I had guts... I feel quite spineless at the moment - don't even ask me what I am talking about. Oh something interesting... I found this group called something like MuslimSisters on MSN communities anyway they seemed really nice so I joined.. as a non-Muslim of course and I found a link on a page to Jews that have converted to Islam... which I thought was interesting as you hear about Christians converting a lot, but not so much about other religions. Anyway I had a peep... it wasn't particularly well organised, but it was interesting none-the-less. I am still trying to figure out if my sister is gonna marry her bf. I don't wanna ask her again cos it seems like I am bugging her about it. She said something to me about how he may buy another house and keep the one they live in at the moment purely as a business venture. I take it that means the new one would be for her and him as a 'couple'??? I think I made her feel old tho cos I was saying how I can't see myself moving out of here for a few years and I was saying that I will probably be about 27 before I get anywhere work-wise... e.g. Masters under my belt and in a good job. She was like... *worried face* I'm nearly 25!! She is thinking of doing an Interior Design course.. which sounds like a good idea, but only if it helps her to get work, otherwise it is a waste of money. I wish I could just get on a plane and fly somewhere. Hmmmmmm... I was watching this programme about Victoria Beckham and I was thinking what on earth did she do to deserve such a good life?? She can do what she wants and have what she wants when she wants it - too many wants!! Anyway I don't think it has brought her complete happiness.. but then is complete happiness achieveable? Oh well had better sign off before I confuse myself even further... |
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