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2002-08-30 - 2:53 a.m. Ummmmmm... well it's the middle of the night........... AGAIN and I am awake. Listening to the radio and chatting on MSN. I just reader another sufferers diary entry for today or last night or whatever day it was <---- confused... it was really good and I just knew exactly how she felt.. altho she is a lot worse than me. I really understand how she feels and I just wish we could get rid of all this crap. It's ruining so many people's lives. I just find it so unfair that anyone has to go through this.. with no apparent end. I am very lucky that I am at the level that I am at... cos so many people are a lot worse than me. I just find the idea of a future so difficult because of the social and relationship problems this disease causes. I feel it makes me an unattractive person to go out with and especially - and more worryingly to marry. I really want to get married when I am older... Certain guys I have been out with - I mean it hasn't put them off, but then I wonder whether this is because they don't understand exactly what is wrong with me and how it affects me. On a plus note............... I GOT MY HAIRCUT - today as in Thursday or yesterday if this is Friday... It's so cool. I had it cut in a Jennifer - friends person.. cannot remember how to spell her surname.. AKA Mrs Pitt - style which is a long bob with softening at the front. I had a lot of hair cut off for this style.. but then it doesn't matter cos I haven't got much in the first place. Anyway cos it is a lot shorter it should look a bit thicker. It was so nice to have my hair washed and cut and blow dried - I had to make NO effort!!! LOVELY. If I was rich I would go have my hair washed and blow dried once a week just for a treat... *dreaming* Anyway the whole point of this was to get me smart looking for my graduation ceremony which is on MONDAAAAAAAAAAAY - OMG breathe breathe.... *feeling worried* and also to get me looking a tad older than 15... for prospective employers. So this time I have to keep the style going and go back in 6 weeks for a trim. I tried my graduation outfit on again today and tomorrow I am going to have to wear my shoes a bit round the house. I was so worried I would have put weight on or something and not be able to get into my outfit. But thankfully it was ok. Tomorrow I must starve cos this evening I sat and scoffed the rest of my bday box of Maltesers and for lunch I had a fatty Cheese toastie and .... wait for it AND... chips. *bowing her head in shame* I really wanna get my weight down a bit more - for both health reasons and also for my own confidence. That means really low fat diet again. Hmmmmmmmm.... Oh my computer game playing has been going well - played The Sims and Theme Hospital today. I didn't do too well on either. Everyone was sicking up everywhere in my hospital and in The Sims - my couple keep starving before they go to work .... OOPS. Am sure I will get better at it. Oh tomorrow I have to fill in my jobseekers booklet and also ring my sis about Monday's arrangements... oh and clean my room. URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Played with my gerbils... Well that's it - I am dying of pain now from my fingers.... |
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