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  • Age: 20s
  • Location: Southern England, UK
  • Occupation: being a Princess..
  • Education: GCSE/A-Level/Bachelors
  • Pros: I love Islam, my pets, my friends and my family
  • Cons: I hate being lonely, missing people, work, not having healthiness
  • Aspirations: train in something useful like teaching, get married and have children (I think that wraps it up nicely!)

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2005-04-15 - 6:22 p.m.

Been re-reading over posts.. remembering some big events in my life and all the stuff in between. I still write on Diaryland, it's my form of therapy... the faceless *person* who I can divulge my feelings to without fear of being judged or attacked.

Things ended with the *him* of this diary... which was really a good thing. He was emotionally abusing me and I was getting stuck in a deeper and deeper rut. I finally got to the point where I felt strong enough to cut the contact and take a break from having relationships. I am so glad that I did that.

I spent a few months in contemplation, praying and reading A LOT. I decided that I would have one last try at finding a soulmate/life partner/husband and I asked Allah (swt) to guide me in this process... that if I was to meet someone... it would happen and I would know that they were the right person for me.

So it happened and that's where I am at now... waiting to get engaged. It's been a long time since I felt capable of facing up to this diary and facing up to the ridiculous relationship I got myself into, but I have made it and I am glad that I came here.

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